My friend .. you have less saving but with them you can buy books written by Dr Babasaheb Ambedkar, Gail Omvedt to begin with. Read them with focus to enlighten yourself on the subject of casteism and discrimination.
You will not feel ashamed of yourself but will get a sense of relief. This is enough to put your head straight up and walk.
Begin with annihilation of Caste ..
Thank me later