You’re strong enough to die man, but it’s pathetic. Face it. Face the loss. Have faith that you’re gonna over come this.
I genuinely believe you’re stronger than that.
And what’s about 47k per month for the rest of years? Won’t you have an increment?
Switch the company and you’ll get the hike
Also, there will be some amount in your PF, withdraw it and use it wisely till then.