Im sorry this happened to u. But, all of this that u said sounds pathetic.
Be a man, accept that u made a mistake, learn what u did wrong and what you could have done better and move on. Put all this behind you.
Crying like a little bi*ch not only makes you look like you can’t handle adversities life throws at u, it just makes u look weak and pathetic. No girl is ever going to respect you for behaving like a weak pushover.
Give it a few days and you will realize that all of this Crying you r doing for a girl who was not worth it.you yourself will start to feel ashamed of you reaction to this.
Count your blessings and learn to control your emotions.