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UI DID NOT CHEAT ON HIM EVER. I just talked to my ex and flirted AFTER I BROKE UP WITH HIM IN NOVEMBER.
I don’t owe him any money, he took a lot of money from me for his business. He even took loans on my name. He is just upset that I asked for all of my money back. I have bank statements and loan statement supporting over a year of financial abuse. Including testimony from his staff from his business, whose salaries he still hasn’t paid.
UHe saw my call for help and posted this as a response. I will tell you about the 3 day meet in Pune… This is what I wrote in diary about the last day ‘when apparantly i put a knife on him ‘I’m not religious, I am an atheist but i keep praying God to kill me. Its the last thing i think about before sleeping and the first thing i think about when I wake up.
You already know a bit about what happens but i need to tell this to someone or I will suffocate.
I remember being very high, and i remember him asking me a lot of questions, that were triggering him. I do not remember that triggered me but I got really upset when he took my phone and wouldn’t give it back. I remember angrily looking at him , and him giving my phone back. But then he took it away again. Then i remember begging him to give it back. Hurting myself, he stopped me but I was out of control. He said that beat him up. And i remember scratching his face and his ear but i also remember doing all that in an attempt to get my phone back. That day i changed my phone’s password 6-7 times but in the end he had the password.
At some point i stopped fighting, and I tried to drink soap to kill myself. I remember falling on the bathroom floor 7-8 times. I was imbalanced but he shoved me everytime. And I fell again and again. I begged him to show mercy. My heart was racing very very fast, with a combination of weed, alcohol and worst of all fear. I felt like i was going to get a heart attack. I felt like i was going to die. I think some part of me was relived about that.
I begged him to show mercy he took everything from me, he transferred all my money to his account, he did a lot more things that even now I’m not aware about.
I begged him for mercy, I asked if I sucked his dick will he show mercy. He stopped me several times. But then he let it happen. I started sucking, I looked at him thinking he might show mercy now. I was crying and scared. He looked at me and told me that he is going to be cruel.
I wanted to die at that moment, and it keeps flashing in front of me. I stopped and did everything in my power to kill myself at the moment I banged my head on every surface. If he had let me i would have jumped off the balcony. I needed to die at the moment.
He keeps bringing up how I beat him up, and I pulled a knife on him. I didn’t pull a knife on him, I was trying to kill myself with the knife. He said that he was hugging me when I was scratching him, but i remember that. He hugged me very tightly and I kept asking him to let me go. It was very very tight… He destroyed me, he destroyed my soul and he believes that i deserved it because i beat him up.The next morning i woke up with my whole body aching. Several swelling on my head and bruises all over my body. If he didn’t beat me up, why do i feel beat up? Why do I feel like dying every moment ? He didn’t beat me up right.
Next morning when I had the illusion of everything being fine, and went ahead and took away my last piece of financial security.After begging him he let me come home
